I don't bl**dy believe it!

Just when you have the best laid plans an all! On Monday 18th I was supposed to be having an Oncology appointment with Dr Barrett to discuss the way forward and I assume what treatments she thought I should be on next. The last time I saw her she asked me to make the appointment for a Monday when she would have more time to talk this over with me and therefore not a clinic day on a Wednesday when it is a rush job and you barely get 5 minutes to talk.

Well, this morning I've received a call from Dr Barrett's secretary saying that the Monday clinic has been cancelled and can I come in on Wednesday at 10.30! What!! I've had to make so many arrangements for next week this just can't be happening. Steve's booked the day off as we already have another hospital appointment on Monday morning, I was then having my Pamidronate at Sue Ryder on Wednesday on my normal Day Care Centre day so that I didn't have to return to the Berks on Thursday to have it.

So now they want to squeeze me in on clinic day on Wednesday but I thought I needed more time with Dr Barrett for a proper discussion. In the meantime, I've got to rearrange everything.

I've spoken with Barbara, Dr B's clinical nurse and she is going to see if I can be seen on Monday morning. She also asked if I could be seen in clinic on Wednesday and then go off to Sue Ryder for the Pamidronate after that but I don't really want to be trekking all over the place, if I'm already at the Berks then I may as well have the Pamidronate there! What a farce, as usual. They must think that I've got nothing better to do than sit around waiting for appointments. I've not had a great week as it is, I'm still very tired and have lots of aches and pains so I'm not in the most positive frame of mind.